Church and Rock&Roll .

First and foremost , here's a belated public birthday shoutout for Ainul Hikmah for 30th October ! *foo fooo* blow candles . Stay hyped and pretty okay miss ((:

and then there was "my sister's keeper". The rating was low and those who read the book said the book is nice but the movie was shitty. So screw the ratings laa , i told hawwei . Soo lalala happily we went off to watch the show and came out crying. No , sobbing . I just had to run out of tissue while my nose was running . Our dear Hawwei , as usual , was STRUGGLING to maintain his manhood . HAHAHA . the show was quite okay . still can tahan . There are moments where it makes you stop and think ;
Am I living my life to the fullest right now ? *ponder ponder*

Or those ;
Am I spending enough time with my loved ones and close friends that mean alot to me?
Then after that show , you'd feel like msging all those people you love and tell them you love them and the love would still be there even if they dont love you no more . Its abit difficult if you have a huge number of friends that you decided you love very much and finally you'd just forget about msging them . mampos .

Alright , back to protecting the country for Mr. nice guy .



And then there was "MJ: This Is It" . I die2 thought it only came out in America(!!) I was abit sad at first until Ayyub and Reihana were talking about its release . I was abit the slow but WHO CARES !? I WATCHED IT ! Alright it might not concern those whose not interested in him or his songs but again , who cares . It was very moving and touching . Listening to it just makes you want to move and dance and boogeyboard down the theatre stairs ..... yet all I could do was sing along and absorb him through the screen .

"Its all about love . L.O.V.E " Such a loving person he was . Still saddening how he's just gone . I still cannot grasp the crotch-grabbing move. But when he does it , it does not appear eww at all . More like , "yeah thats a sexy move" haha . ok shuddup .



Everybody's Free



Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future , sunscreen would be it .
The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas
the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering experience..I will dispense this advice now .
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth ;
oh nevermind ;
you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded .
But trust me , in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself
and recall in a way you can't grasp now
how much possibility lay before you and
how fabulous you really looked...
You're not as fat as you imagined .
Don't worry about the future ;
or worry , but know that worrying is as effective
as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum .
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind ;
the kind that blindside you at 4pmon some idle Tuesday .
Do one thing everyday that scares you .
Sing .
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts ,
don't put up with people who are reckless with yours .
Floss .
Don't waste your time on jealousy ;
sometimes you're ahead ,sometimes you're behind ...
the race is long , and in the end ,it's only with yourself .
Remember the compliments you receive ,
forget the insults ;if you succeed in doing this , tell me how .
Keep your old love letters , throw away your old bank statements .
Stretch .
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life ...
the most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives ,
some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium .
Be kind to your knees , you'll miss them when they're gone .
Maybe you'll marry , maybe you won't ,
maybe you'll have children , maybe you won't .
Maybe you'll divorce at 40 , maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary...
what ever you do ,
don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either -
your choices are half chance , so are everybody else's .
Enjoy your body ,use it every way you can ...
don't be afraid of it ,or what other people think of it,
its the greatest instrument you'll ever own .
Dance ...
even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room .
Read the directions , even if you don't follow them .
Do NOT read beauty magazines , they will only make you feel ugly .
Get to know your parents , you never know when they'll be gone for good .
Be nice to your siblings ;
they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future .
Understand that friends come and go ,
but for the precious few you should hold on .
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get ,
the more you need the people you knew when you were young .
Live in New York City once ,
but leave before it makes you hard ;
live in Northern California once ,
but leave before it makes you soft .
Travel .
Accept certain inalienable truths ,
prices will rise ,politicians will philander ,you too will get old ,
and when you do you'll fantasize that
when you were young prices were reasonable ,
politicians were noble and children respected their elders .
Respect your elders .
Don't expect anyone else to support you .
Maybe you have a trust fund , maybe you have a wealthy spouse ;
but you never know when either one might run out .
Don't mess too much with your hair , or by the time you're 40 , it will look 85 .
Be careful whose advice you buy , but ,
be patient with those who supply it .
Advice is a form of nostalgia ,
dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal ,
wiping it off , painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth .
But trust me on the sunscreen ...
The L Word

I have vowed to keep my hair longer than my skin temperaments would allow . Yessirrehh ! So guys wont slap me on my back no more as a gesture of Hey . Nah Uhh . So I wont get called down to play soccer instead of going shopping . And I can do that "flick your hair over your shoulders" that they do . Personally , I find that gesture quite disturbing . So scrape that . Ouh , main point is ; then maybe I can NOT be referred to as a Tomboy anymore . Please , people .
Hint : The writer of this blog has long demolished her days of kicking balls , owning a disowned skateboard or a super haawwt yellow bike which supposedly did not belong to her in the first place and got thrown out by her sweet old mother (very sad time for yours truly) . No more cutting up my hair when stress sets in ! You go , girlfriend !

Tomorrow's the first day of the last battlefield . The only time I am looking forward to is taking 72 to school and taking 72 back . I think you know that I know you know why . I think we all know how cocked the timetable is . I sure as hell know that .

Message of the day ; its after you have done it or said it all out , thats when you realised you made a mistake and see the true beauty of what lies beneath .
Empire State of Mind .

Technically , im not supposed to burn any of my existing fats . Im supposed to gain some . But gym with Erin on Monday was FUYOOO . Define fuyoo in your own terms . Haha . I still remained the same though . Duhh . I cannot be expecting to gain weight in a gym righttttt . My stamina was h-o-r-r-i-b-l-e laa . Macam gini dancing is ten times more preferred option to keep in shape .

Talking about dance , one would never have thought that these few people from your past would bring sooo much joy and make a difference in your life . Dancing is back in my agenda baybeh !! I just HATE the making up part cause then my pimples will rage war . Ouh joy . Hopefully the big events dont clash with the exams . Anyways I know it will but hoping never killed anyone .

Say hulloo to our pet cat , Bell . Hullloooo ! First time we had a shecat in the da house ! Lets give it up for her people ! Apparently , the he-cat before this was jealous we took her in so he took off , bringing his catified ego and pride with him . Guys and their egos . Fine whateverr luh . Its his loss .

Ouh yeah and that day also was the jalan raya with the girlfriends/secondary school cliques . Thats why i was wearing my baju kurung and you see nicha in the background . The rest were probably either sleeping on the sofa or lying on the carpet floor watching that horror movie . Tu baru panggil "buatlah macam rumah sendiri" hahaha . Thats my house for you . Enjoy it now or never . No more lepak sessions anymore next year ! Sad now that I think about it .

So the timetable for the 2nd semester is out . Whoppee -__- The only thing I hate about it is we only have one hour break each time ; my two wonderful girls have 4 same modules as me so it means 2 lesser modules to crap with ; 3/4 of the week starts at 8am ! [%&$%*$%^$#] ; one is 5 hours straight , 2 others is 4 ; and did i mention we have one hour break each day ?

im not complaining .

Take time to smell the Roses.

Dementia (meaning "deprived of mind") is a serious cognitive disorder. It may be static, the result of a unique global brain injury or progressive, resulting in long-term decline in cognitive function due to damage or disease in the body beyond what might be expected from normal aging. Although dementia is far more common in the geriatric population, it may occur in any stage of adulthood. This age cutoff is defining, as similar sets of symptoms due to organic brain syndrome or dysfunction, are given different names in populations younger than adult.
Dementia is a non-specific illness syndrome (set of signs and symptoms) in which affected areas of cognition may be memory, attention, language, and problem solving.
Credits to wikipedia for the information.

yeah thats what my raya this year is mostly about. three dementia-ish old ones in one night. its sad yet scary at the same time knowing that this disorder is occurring to those around you. its not family though. just people that once left footsteps in your lives.

its super disturbing if you are being faced by people with dementia within a 3-day period . its like getting smack in the face by Ms. Reality . 17 years ago , i would not have thought these very people are the ones that fed me and entertained me with their antics . they looked so young and vibrant then . now , its sad that they cant even see you 17 years later cause of those old people syndrome . singing in the middle of the night and imagining things that we would never have begun to imagine .

Its like your face kena slam in the door while you were happily smelling the roses and laughing with chocolate stains on your teeth . yeah that kind of expression . slammed in the door THREE TIMES .

yess i admit , i was wondering how my mum would be when she's 85 years old . but i hoped she would still be the irritating bugger that she is now . hahaha . minus the nags and i dunno how menopause will be like for her 0_0

probably by now most of my friend's fb would be loaded with their family raya pics waa i very envious okay haha . probably by now , i still have not seen my uncles and aunts . wahaha .

and you obviously would not be reading this, and so do everybody else since this blog has been abandoned for quite a long time haha my bad , but hawwei , you are one tak handsome brad pitt and your sweet talk is soo going to get you in trouble one day .

but thank you for the shoutout!!
you may be FULLer around the tummy , FULL of vulgarities and an avid smoker but honestly , i foresee all that and see a truly honest and loving friend that never fails to spend that extra precious time just to talk and listen before lights out .

and if i dont smile enough , thank you for those "Fcuk lahh , atleast can smile for me anot!"
just like you said ; Take time to smell the roses.
Kantoi



i love her voice !! those ooohh sexy hubba hubba voice . more like pink when she's sober or singing emo-ish songs . and she's a malaysian btw . coool hor .

countdown;
13 days and 4 overtimes to gooooooooooo ! plus one public holiday and one half-day . yet it still does not make me feel better about the upcoming presentation . kianchioooong mode full on siooooot !
ATTORNEY: "Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?"
WITNESS: "No."
ATTORNEY: "Did you check for blood pressure?"
WITNESS: "No."
ATTORNEY: "Did you check for breathing?"
WITNESS: "No."
ATTORNEY: "So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?"
WITNESS: "No."
ATTORNEY: "How can you be so sure, doctor?"
WITNESS: "Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar."
ATTORNEY: "I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?"
WITNESS: "Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practising law."

wahahaha! if you find it lame , it is !

anyhow , lets get philosophical here .
lets see . some things just don't go the way you want it . some words are meant to be said but yet there is no easy way of putting it . blabla bla in my terms , it sucks . there are some things you regret doing but yet there is no way of turning it around . yet there are some things you did not ask for but its those things that you realise now you cannot live without . presently , i have regrets that go way back to secondary school year 1 . and i still regret it now . yeah whatever . see , i told you it sucks . but but , life decides not to be a bitch and replaces the sucky ones with tiny little surprise packages . Surprise surprise ; its not what you asked or wanted . But give and take few weeks , months or years , you realise that you cannot live without it . now i guess this is where destiny or fate or whoever comes in . maybe you're fated to be a doctor , maybe you're not . maybe you're destined to love her , maybe you're not . maybe you're supposed to die the next day at 2 in the afternoon due to a freak accident , or maybe not . but get this . its not too late too apologize or say you love a person when you can still breathe . i admit to one thing . i apologized to a friend after 3, 4 years maybe , and it made me feel a whole lot better . not like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder , no , it did not feel like a burden . it felt more like my heart felt lighter . maybe it'll work for you .

on a sidenote;
when i wake up in the morning with the radio already turned on , my dreams and the music get weaved in together and its very beautiful dream at times . you never know what dream you gonna get . depends on the kind of music the radio is playing . try it ! or im too slow to learn about this ?